Wish Life Is Like A Ball...

It's been awhile since I updated this blog. Too long really. Since then, there has been a lot of changes that passed though my life's path. I wish it were all good but then again, a little hurt will make you appreciate life more. Or does it make you feel that life really sucks. I can't really figure out the distinction. But the bottom line is that I wish it was more good.

Fast forward to where I'm at today. I'm still here and trying to hold up my side of the bargain which is living God's gift of life and not descending to hell by giving up on the gift. It's not easy but that's just how life is. Everything looks so easy until you get tested first before the lesson is given. That's how funny experience is. Test first before lesson. Do I sound bitter? I hope not.

I used to be sure of the things I do. I think things carefully and make a decision on how to approach it. Nowadays, I second guess myself. I wish I don't have to but I do. I just do and this is in everything that I do. Except when I play soccer. It's like when I'm in the field, nothing else matters. It's just me and the ball.

Don't get me wrong, I don't consider myself a good soccer player but I can hang in the field with anyone. Even if I have to crawl just to be in the field. But during this time when life seems to be uncertain around me, I seem to project a positive image to myself when I'm in the field. What used to be me playing defensively, now adjusts offensively and do a lot of damage to the other team. I'm not saying I'm the only one scoring but am actually calling the plays to make the goals. In the field, it's just me and the ball. I wish it was just like that off the field.

But I have to be off the field sometime. And that's when life starts all over again.